Saturday, February 08, 2003

im scared, im worried..

she's not well....

im scared tat i havent treasured her.

she's sleeping now... resting......

im afraid tat i havent been good.

she's quiet...

i fear tat the times i felt tat i hated her would turn to utter regret.

ill try. to not make u unhappy, to assure u tat im ok on mah own.

ill make mah bed, ill wash the dishes, ill clean the house... ill help u, mummy.

Friday, February 07, 2003

Artist : Steven Curtis Chapman
Song : What I Really Want To Say


I say I love you, I say I need you
I try so many ways to say how my heart beats for you
I say I'm always thinking about you
There's no way I'd want to face this life without you
And even though these words comes from deep inside me
There's so much more I don't have the words to say

'Cuz what I really want to say
Is what the sun would say to the sky
For giving it a place to come alive
But my words get in the way
Of what I really want to say
Oh what I really want to say

I know that sometimes my words can be as hard as stone
And sometimes my words have left you feeling so alone
So please forgive me and hear the words I'm saying now
I spend my whole life looking for a way somehow
To let you know just how precious you are to me
I'll use the best words I know but I still won't say it all

Chorus

It's like a tale too great to be told
It's something that my heart can only show
I'm gonna take my whole life
Just to let you know
What I really want to say
Oh, what I really want to say
What I really want to say
Oh, what I really want to say

Wednesday, February 05, 2003

living mah life without betrayin mah individuality... its difficult manz.

i gotta pang sai now.

Monday, February 03, 2003

HEAVEN ( candlelight mix) -- dedicated to all

Oh, thinkin' about our younger years,
There was only you and me,
We were young and wild and free
Now nothin' can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
But that's over now,
You keep me comin' back for more

Baby, you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms,
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Oh once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Pick you up when your feelin down
Now nothin' could change what you mean to me
there's a lot that I could say
But just hold me now,
Cause our love will light the way

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms,
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

I've been waiting for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along
Now our dreams are comin' true,
Through the good times and the bad,
I'll be standin' there by you

Baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin here in my arms
Im finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
Oh, Oh
We're in heaven
CNY 2003



Fri-



went to aunt's house for reunion dinner..everything was fine.. met up with mah cousins, but didnt talk much... not so close to them lar. BUT ,it was raining.. and the rain was a long-lived one. really wets mah mood leahz. heh.. it was after the dinner and it was still rAINing.! coz mah aunt's house is like a block away from the carpark... so mah daddy and uncle and another aunt carried mah grandmama to the car leah~..... hehe, so farnie.... but it really dawned onto me to be fillial haha.. mah mother was telling me ' wah, she's so grand ar.' and she also said tat she should watch her weight as she gets older.. coz her mother (mah other granny) is quite heavy and its difficult to even FU her.. aiz.... hehe..

when i reacher home i was tired liaoz.. wah then mah bro wanted to go chinatown.... at like 1 plus in the wee wee hours!!? shen jing bingz.. but mah parents went with him la.... i gotta zzz ar.


Sat ( CHU YI) -



me and mah whole family practically woke up at like 11am... haha..... so unusual for a chu yi. oh i watched 8 mile, vcd borrowed from mah uncle the previous night... heh. . later mummy bugged me to get ready to go.. okies la. i wore mah new clothes...... quite happy~ yeah of coz went visiting........ yeah yeah ang baos, haa.... went to like 4 houses. quite interesting, coz i went to mah grand uncle's house... didnt even know i had one...... haha...... he and his wife... really cool.... its like though they're old, they're still very alert and ...cool~ haha... really nice ppl, we were chattin, and grandaunt told me... ' must let the guy chase u, not girl chase guy' , ' and u dont hafta marry so early coz there'd be many responsibilities and i'd be tied down' hehe... cool ya? whoever said old ppl are boring and old fashioned?

most relatives talk to me abt the same thing..... wat am i studying? jc2 where? aj ... oOOoh.... so fast ar!! (some say Oh issit? tot u university already_) then. so wat do u intend to study in uni? er..... i havent decided??...... and one thing tat surprised me was tat most of them recommended to just go into TEACHING? wat? no way!... at least i wouldnt dedicate all mah life to teaching..... i'd age easily!........ but seriously i dont know.... so irritating...... y do all of them expect an answer fr me? ??!

ohoh! i went to mah cousin's and realised tat his gf was fr mah og lor ( he's fr acjc) wahz.. the world is so small!!!!!! haha... but he's got quite a good catch..... she's pretty, and a good netballer..... cool. :)
check her out man, Andrea, the GK of acjc netball team...



Sun( CHU 2) -



woke up late again.... sleepy head ar. actually planned to go to church. but i woke up at the time the service started!! haha. aiz still i went, coz i wanted to meet up with clarence.... who's back fr aus. well we went holland v.... and like caught up with each other..... its always ppl like them who really make u feel tat time flies.... really, tat time he left for aus was like 2 yrs back liaoz.... wahz! really fast! anyway he's doing great in designing course in uni..... while im still stuck in college? hah.... oh well. chat chat chat...
initially wanted to meet up with those ac ppl, but i didnt la, lazy....

today didnt want to go visiting.... really sian. hehe.... well mah mummy helped me collect ang baos haha!!......... im one lazy gal~



Mon( CHU 3)-


lazy girl does her thing again. :p

wat? there's sch tmr?! how come cny hol is over so soon?